What an interesting day this is turning out to be. As the days, weeks, and months pass the happy day of my new baby’s arrival grows closer and certain things I’ve been trying to ignore are rearing their ugly little heads. First of all I’m trying to get into graduate school and pursue a Masters of Fine Arts to finally get back to making art not that you need a degree to create art but that’s another issue for another day. What does this have to do with my wife being pregnant you ask? They are both due around the same date and lets not even get into the financial implications of a newborn and grad school. Just applying for grad school is a bit scary enough. I have to prepare a letter of intent basically detailing why I want to pursue this degree and of course why they should care. Three letters of reference and let me tell you rounding up past professors who like still like you and remember you isn’t always a piece of cake. These two are actually the easy part (not really). The part that is really driving me to no sleep is the portfolio. I’ve been out of school for 3 years now and in all honesty out of the art scene for that time. I’ve continued to work but not really putting all of my time into it. I haven’t shown my work in 3 years. My work is in my opinion strong enough to get me into grad school but there’s still that knot in the pit of my stomach that worries me. Is my work good enough or was my work good enough.

Am I stuck in a rut or do I still know how to be creative with my work? Do I worry too much? Am I whining too much? That’s probably a YES! Well I think I can do it. The feeling of fear isn’t much different than my first attempt at art school, or my second year performance review.

It’s time to look at my portfolio and pick the best work, what will it be?

Any suggestions?